This was perhaps the time I have been waiting for, looking forward to, for the past twelve years in general, and the last two years in particular. A time free of exams, a time devoid of all contact with anything academic ... and finally it's come ... actually it'll properly come into existence next monday when I finish taking the last of the string of 'competitive examinations' ... this one's the BITSAT ... that I've applied for. But believe me, it has come into being in essence already if not in technicality. As a result, I haven't even seen my textbooks for more than two weeks now, which a year earlier, or even a month earlier would have been, if not mathematically, certainly pscyologically impossible.
But now that everything's over, I am feeling if not bored, terribly blank ... as if it's a new life I've to adjust to now. Hours spent staring at the computer screen, or SET MAX courtesy the IPL, is somehow new to my life. Even till last year, everything had been so much self restricted, as if by my own moral scruples and conscience. After all these bally hoo ... ISC, IITJEE, WBJEE, AIEEE, VITEE ... and the gruelling effort put into my work for success in any one of these for these two years has literally spent me, exhausted me, smothered my clear thinking, and made me numb and feelingless. As if it's a new me, unknown to Subhayan Mukerjee, and alien to myself.
I guess this is the time to rejuvenate myself, restore my old self, and ... well ... bring me back to where I belong ...
It certainly won't be easy ... owing to the continous nagging feeling of uncertainty regarding the results of these EEE examinations. But I guess '... what's done can't be undone...' and that ' ... that without remedy should be without regard ... '
Damn! Used Macbeth quotes again!!! :)
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